My name is Breanna and this is my story. I am a 20 year old single mom trying to raise my 2 year old daughter while struggling to accept and understand all the horrible things that have happened to me throughout my life. This is my first time blogging so I don’t really know how to do this yet but hopefully I start getting the hang of things as I continue to write. When people ask me about how my life has been I usually reply with the fact that I may only be 20 but I’ve gone through more than most people have by 30 and here is why.
Without going into too much detail inorder to save things for my blogs later on here is a quick run down of my life. I grew up in the same house my whole life with my 2 younger brothers, mom and dad. From the outside we seemed like a normal family but once behind closed doors everything changed. My mother abused me for many years starting as early as 5 years old ranging from emotional, psychological and physical abuse. All of her hatred, anger, frustration and whatever other bad emotions she had were released onto me which left only her love and happiness for my brother’s.
My mother’s abuse combined with multiple sexual assualts from my grandfather and a guy from school, being bullied for years, getting into a long term abusive relationship with my daughter’s father and being raped back in December have caused a lot of damage to my mental health. I have been diagnosed with numerous mental illness such as depression, anxiety, PTSD, borderline personality disorder, bipolar 2, seperation anxiety, the fear of abandoment and the fear of being alone. I’ve struggled for years with anorexia, drug abuse, suicidal ideation, as well as self harm leaving my body and mind filled with scars. No matter what life seems to throw at me I refuse to let it break me.
Throughout my blogs I hope to talk about my life experiences and show how they have transformed me into the woman and mother I am today. To show that if anyone who reads these have been through abuse, sexual assaults, struggle with their mental health that you are not alone and you can over come anything. You are not alone. You are not defined by what has happened to you and none of it is ever your fault.
I strongly encourage anyone who reads my blogs to leave comments whether positive or negative. I always appreciate your feed back no matter what. If you want to contact me for anything you can email me at BreesBlogging1012@gmail.com and I will respond as quickly as I can! I plan to blog once a week and as I start getting used to it more I will start allowing guest posting.
Thank you for taking the time out of your day to read my blogs and I truly hope my struggles will help shed some insight on yours!